Thoughts

long time i didn't post with english lol. well now i will.

recently, i read quite some blogs of those i knew. i read back their old posts. why? they do not update daily do they? so the only way to find something out of their blog, is, look into their past.

as expected, they have a lot of sports, games, adventures, journeys and travelling. they hang out with friends, they joined social activities, they took photos, they had fun. their past is filled with nice and sweet memories. well, this make senses perfectly for teenagers.

now look at me.

while those were having fun, what was i doing?

gaming.

that's the only thing that came to my mind, when i recall what i had done back then. i was so addicted to games, and i became so unsocialized.

as stated before in one of my previous chinese post, i wasn't concern about friendship. unlike the usual teenagers. gaming is good enough for me back then.

if i have to recall, what had i done with friends, well......good questions. other than those days in school, i really had no idea.

those blogs i read, they record down their trip, their adventure, took photos, and so on. for me? i did travel, but when compare to them, it become a joke. i don't record down my trip, nor my adventures, and i really get annoy easily when it come to photo shooting. evidences of my previous life are hardly found, as if......

i don't have a past.

really? i did live for 19 years, but what had i done? it is as good as i have no past.

when teenagers are hanging out, i stay home gaming.
when they go for trip, i stay home gaming.
when they are having crucial friendship interactions, i still stay home gaming.

if my past is all about gaming, is that what you called a past?

i wonder.

but then.

if i do have a past, are there evidences?
if i do have a past, is there anyone concern about that?

i think the answer is obvious.